Is being pretty everything?

Many things happened but I didn't post any entry about it hahaha... I won't post anything too personal anymore, since I believe there are some people who are curious about me... even TOO curious & I'm not kidding. Incovenience... If you understand what I mean ^^

Lately, I fell in love with Fat Cat's songs. I know it's a bit too late but her image is unique. And my fave song was Is being pretty everything. Even the concept was cute!!! XD

I'm also addicted to manhwa called Noblesse, It has a good story & art. Check it out Noblesse

Sorry if you feel I'm hiding myself, but I just want to make sure I'm save from "kepo" people. Thx for your concideration!!! :D

I was sick ;A;

Hahaha... Hello again!!!
I was sick from Saturday, Idk what to do coz bed rest & medication were useless...
But today they started to send me comic page to flat again & I went to the gym
It doesn't mean I'm already healthy but I'm trying to do something

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Nu'est has taken my heart lately... Their song was catchy ^^ And people in my twitter timeline like Ren bcoz he's so beautiful LOL I haven't decide my fave member~
Just check out their video :D

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Today I waited for my mom to come to the mall... I was pretty sick, my headache was so bad... T.T I wouldn't dare to drive home...

I bought some product from the Face shop:

This cleansing cream can whiten our face. 1st time using cleansing cream, coz my cousin said it's the best way to clean my face... although I barely use make up.

 This masker also can brighten our face. Ugh, yeah my face skin tone is a bit dark hahahaha... I want to fix it without surgery, injection or something else which are dangerous =.=

The reason why I don't wanna be adult

Some of my friend already knew it. But the reason??? I don't think people know it, or even care hahahaha~

I post this entry coz I've been hurt by them A LOTTA times. I tell you 1st, in my language, it called "dewasa". But this word have some meaning. It also means mature. I'm willing to be mature, but I refuse to be the same with adults.

I'm surrounded by so many wicked adults. They're demonic, hypocrite, and manipulative. And the worst is: they have no empathy. The world is filled with this kind of people.

Can I be mature without changing to them??? I hope so...

Random again

Posting blog entry is so addicting!!!

I know not many people would read it, but still... :D

Last Saturday, I met some of my high school classmates: Irene, Raina & Inge. I have no photo, although the uploaded it on FB LOL~ I arrived too late coz I overslept!!! I arrived about 1,5 hour from the appointment time ;A; It's so embarrasing coz I usually on time~ Irene went home earlier. Me, Raina, Inge & her friend decided to go to Paragon. Woohoo!! It's the 1st time I gave my friends a ride!!! We just walked around the mall & went home at 9pm.

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Yay, papa's new car just arrived. But it's matic, so... I won't drive it. As a car maniac, papa added some accesories which are I don't think very useful. Okay, not my car anyway. But I started to freak out when he said he'll add some accesories to my future car. OAO NOOOOOOOOO!!! don't need those things!!! A simple car is enough~!

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Yesterday I went to the gym, & my member card has done!!! My face... looks so ugly, it's taken after I worked out so I was such a mess.

LOL sorry I won't show you my ugly face

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When I hung out with my classmates at Paragon, I also bought some products from the Face Shop. I haven't used it, I hope it's good ;p

These are the hair products. I never knew the Face shop has curling wax! My fave was from Etude house. Let's see which product is better

Random bla3

Hello guys, I'm back again! ^^

Sry I didn't post any entry these past couple months... Actually I posted one but I deleted it. I didn't think the post was appropriate to read, bcoz I wrote it when I'm completely mad >.<

Recently, I posted a lot entry about "him". Frankly speaking, I don't really know what's my fault. It doesn't mean I didn't make one, but I haven't figured it out. I thought being the best can make him change his mind, but yeah... I was wrong. But guess what??? Everything he does now won't hurt me anymore.

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Anyway, I went to Jogja yesterday to meet ko Sansan. His name is Santosa actually, I was looking for a job & he needs an illustrator. Sounds great, huh??? He owns a small publisher name Taka, it's a young company & still growing.I know him from uncle Tim, my mom's cousin.

After a short talk, I think I won't be a full timer, I wanna be a freelancer. I didn't say the salary is not good, but I don't think it's enough for living. Especially for rent a boarding house =.= And I will go to Korea this May, do you think he will let me go after I only work for 2 months!?
But some people said experience is more important than money~ Good... Now I'm confused.

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Last Monday, I went to Peacock Cafe with my friend, Han. I always curious how the cafe interior looks like. But now I know, the room is quite tiny. I barely can move, and I believe people can hear our talk. Han drew me & I look soooo sadistic. I thread him not to upload it, hahaha~

Oricca has back from the laundry. It's been a view weeks, but I just upload the pic today. Its fur was soooo smooth, I can't stand it!! I planned to "bury" it in a box, but I decided not to do it.

Hey, this is my ex bf. I don't really care if he would mad bcoz of it but I just wanna show you guys his picture. It's taken at our 1st & last date. Kinda fun... but we're not together anymore. Can you guess who he is???

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	Low
Envy:	Very Low
Lust:	Low
Pride:	High

The Seven Deadly Sins Quiz on 4degreez.com

I took the quiz. It seems my pride is my biggest sin T.T

Eraser

Jumat lalu, aku delete no hp & conv dia. Aku nggak blg lgsg, tp ngetweet & aku yakin koq dia tau.

Setelah sekian lama aku ngotot bertahan, aku memutuskan untuk berhenti. Lebih tepatnya, aku harus tau kapan aku harus berhenti. Rasanya aku bertahan terlalu lama.

Yang menyakitiku mungkin bukan dia, tapi diri sendiri yg terus berusaha.

Ini langkah besar buat aku, memutuskan untuk berhenti. Berhenti mendekat & menyakiti diri sendiri.

Temenku pernah blg, jangan pernah berharap orang lain akan membalas perlakuan baikmu ke diri kita. Awalnya aku juga gitu, tp makin lama aku makin egois. Aku mau lebih. Mungkin aku salah di bagian ini :D

Kalo mau bertahan pun, apa yang bakal aku dapet?? Sahabatku yg aku curhatin nanya, sampe kapan aku mo kaya gini? Menurutku dia bener. Selama ini aku kayak orang lain, bukan jd diri sendiri. Sabar, mengalah... semua itu bukan sifatku. Kalo emang aku akhirnya berhasil dapetin dia lagi, sampe kapan aku bs menahan diri?? Dia pasti kabur kalo aku nunjukin sifat asliku. Lagipula ortuku takut banget aku milih utk bersama dia, krn dari cerita2ku mereka ngeri ngebayangin aku hrs ngabisin seumur hidup sama dia.

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Btw, tadi malam aku muntah (maaf ngomongnya jorok). Seumur hidup baru kali ini aku muntah. Nggak tahu kenapa koq bisa jadi kayak gitu. Biasanya aku sakit kalo stres, tp aku sama sekali ga stres tuh. Akhirnya dr pagi ga berani makan, baru malam ini makan indomie huhuhu... full karbo T.T

Heart

Kenapa hati gampang berubah?? Kenapa orang sulit buat jujur?? Kenapa & masih banyak kenapa yg sebenernya yg bikin aku bertanya2.

Hari ini housemateku bilang dia mau diet. Aku tau dia bohong, kurus adalah hal yang dia benci. Dia gak makan karena tanggal tua, ga ada uang lagi.

Banyak hal yang ga masuk akal di dunia ini. Kaya MV nya Baby Soul - No better than strangers. Cowok itu yang ninggalin cewenya, tapi kenapa dia nangis?

Salah satu hal yang membingungkan terjadi hari ini. Seseorang yang blg I still love you 2 hari yang lalu, ngatain aku stalker & bikin dia takut.

Okay...??

Selama ini aku santai2 aja sama perasaanku, selama aku blm move on aku let it flow. Lagian aku jg ga dikejar deadline kawin. Aku masih sayang sama seseorang dan aku ngebiarin perasaan itu, ga memupuk & juga ga ngilangin, walaupun hati kecil masih berharap.

Sampe suatu hari, aku nemuin fakta tentang diriku. Aku ngasihtau dia segera setelah aku tau. Kalo kamu benci aku, terima kasih sudah ngejauhin aku, krn aku ga bs move on sendiri. Kalo nggak... ga tau lg deh

Aku masih ga bs ngerti kenapa dia gt. Kalo emang ga mau sama aku, kenapa masih bilang kangen?? Kata2nya aku masih inget lho. Dan dia blg skrg ilfeel?

Omongan dia makin nggak jelas, nggak bs dibedain antara bener & nggak. Makin kasar dan menyedihkan.

Kenapa bikin orang berharap hanya untuk menjatuhkannya? Sekejam itukah kamu? Setauku dia ga kaya gitu. Aku pengen tau maksudnya. Ato aku emang terlalu naif ky yg diblg orang2.

Semoga suatu hari km belajar utk ngertiin hati orang. Dl km pernah blg mau belajar, entahlah sepertinya sampe saat ini gak ada kemajuan. Good luck!

Aku sejak awal ga pernah minta/maksa utk kembali sama kamu, tp km jg ga bs maksa aku bwt mengubah perasaanku. Aku tetep ga akan benci km & doakan terus, biarpun di matamu aku cuma stalker.

Aku ga pernah tergantung sama kamu, aku gini karena aku MERASA diberi kesempatan, dan aku salah